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19th Jan

2012-01-19T23:46:00.003+08:00

for 22 years of my life,
one thing i hated most is
when people disregard my opinions/feelings
or simply disrespect me in any way.
i hate it when people imposed things
on me. it's like an order ... not a task anymore.
if the order is something i like, it's okay
but if it is something i don't like,
then i will take ages or never get things done.
i protest silently because i hate to explain myself.

i know it's kind of childish but
how do you expect me to say it.

yaya you said, "push it to happen."
i'm not "it" so don't push me.

13th Jan

2012-01-13T22:53:00.004+08:00

hellohello

week 1 of intern ended on friday the 13th HAHA!!!

did practically nothing today because
we had spring cleaning for our office and warehouse.
sales and marketer need to clean warehouse!
wahhhhh damn tiring can! HAHA
but at least we got to interact with our colleagues.

btw, we went home at 5pm HAHA!!!

hope next week got more work (:
i mean work... constructive work.

i hate work because i need to wake up at 6.05am.
i hate work because i'm desk-bound!!!
i hate work because lunch is only one hour.
i hate work because it left me no time for misc stuff.
i know all work are like that but i'm just not like that.

btw im just whining you know like just whining away!

12th Jan

2012-01-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hellohello!!!

on my way home from ntu now!
just had a meeting with our sponsor,
its a good learning experience (:

at work today, I started liaising with
suppliers and customers. haha!!
it's kinda stressful because
they know the products better thn I do! LOL
I hope I can serve them better by the days!

anyway I handled chemicals today!
not the preparing part... I helped to wrap them into a parcel LOL!!!

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11th Jan

2012-01-11T22:25:00.004+08:00

MID-WEEK!

i feel like an infant
getting interested in almost everything
and there are so much to learn and try out.
it's all good (:
i love the idea of learning.

today met more colleagues
since they are back from their break.

we had our monthly meeting this morning.
boss invited us the interns too!
it'd say it's totally a new experience.
very very different from sch style of meeting.
it's also very interesting to listen to boss
and appreciate her powerpoint.
anyway i contributed one slide for her powerpoint.
LOL !!!

we had "free" lunch again!
tze char this afternoon!
it's damn yummy yummy yummy!!!
haha!!!
satisfied our tummies then its back to work (:

anyway i did my first post in my company blog...
feeling a little weird but who cares right?
HAHAHA!!!

i'm going back to school tomorrow !!!

10th Jan

2012-01-10T19:24:00.003+08:00

hellohello

maybe i should revert this to a little journal of an intern.
day 2 of internship.
time flew!
i had so much to handle.
first half of the day was spent doing adhoc stuff boss assigned.
it's kind of fun making certificates then email-ed to the people.

today studied really a lot!!!
studied oceans, markets, paints, addictive and shipping.
information overloaded!!!
still got a project and report to do :(

my mentor will be back tomorrow!
i hope she will be able to help me!
i hope we can go out and have lunch.
2 days of dabao food upsetted me :(

9th Jan

2012-01-09T20:29:00.003+08:00

first day of the 22 weeks internship attachment.
i want to say it is 5 months, not half a year.
in fact i'm looking forward to 9th Jun.
haha, for its zaizai's birthday, it is also
the last day of internship. the end of low pay!!!

i would say today was fairly okay.
very much like a honeymoon in the office
since everyone was freaking busy on a Monday.
on top of that, my mentor is on MC for 2 days.
so the other girl and me were quite free (:

anyway, company is good because we were each given a laptop.

culture transition is a problem.
not quite used to the lunch break, and almost anything.
hope things will get better as time passes.

one more thing is that our bosses love to speak to us one by one.
i don't quite like it because it's kind of secretive
but maybe we will be more open to voice our concerns this way?

it's only day 1 and boss already passed me 3 projects to do.
seriously freak me out!!!
all of them are p&c so i can't publish it online.
but it's would be good if i manage to work things out.

guess what?
i need to submit a report at the end of each week to big boss
to report what you have done for the week.
sian to the max :( it gonna be friday blues.

there's a big boss, my direct boss and my mentor btw.
i hope things will become clearer, i can adapt to the
environment faster and i can start my engine soon.

by the way, work due tomorrow morning at 10:30 ):
and i'm already very sleepy :(:(:(

oh i miss school. i miss my clique.
i miss pictureworks. i miss pink.
i miss my friends there :(

7th Jan

2012-01-07T22:48:00.001+08:00

before i enter uni, i hated brand new year.
because it means i need to go back to school
not so bad if it is the same classmates...
if its a totally new class, i will cry T.T

these few years were awesome
because new year means celebration
and no need to go back to school...
the mood was so much better.

but the same old feeling is back...
i need to start internship next week.
it will be 5 LONG months.
from 9th jan to 9th june.
i really feel like im on probation.
maybe a nicer word compared to jail.
initially i didnt feel that bad until
i learnt that my pay is so much lower than my peers.
totally wts! i went for interview and they didnt even need.
i kept telling myself the most important is
i learnt something during this period.
but its hard to swallow ... really.

sometimes i hope i can job-hop every now and then.

had my ia briefing at mahachem on tuesday.
i met my mentor and he assigned us jobs.

he had a super long conversation with me
as compared to my peers.
don't know if it is good or bad.
he told me to open my heart to experience
real working life and do it professionally.
to learn you must do it yourself.
(i laughed when he told me that because
DO IT is such a sensitive word. Vanness and Zaizai's song!)
he also told me to set high expectation for myself
and be ready to be challenged every day.
(actually i don't mind that... i scared got nothing to do)
always believe in your capabilities and you will be able to do it.

my gp tutor once wrote on my gp essay
"i think therefore i am"
and i will never forget.

yes i believe i will work hard for my internship.
because i want to do well (:
i don't want to disappoint anyone and more
importantly, myself...
it's the beginning to more opportunities.

4th Jan

2012-01-04T00:02:00.003+08:00

my 2011.

i'm back (:
you probably won't expect to see this entry.
i promised a cambodia and HK trip entry
but none of them was out eventually.
i procrastinated too badly and
workload last year was overwhelming and
i had no time to think haha!!!

i actually took some time off last night before i sleep to reflect on my 2011.
it was a year i made choices and decisions made me to who i am today.
it was a year when I learnt a lot about myself and the people around me.
i met many new people, good and bad.
i teared really badly and laughed really hard.
i also experienced new stuff (as usual).

the most impactful - Cambodia Trip
i really learnt a lot about myself over there.
it wasn't easy to survive that 16 days.
more importantly, all the beautiful memories and
awesome friends i made. it's really through hardship,
strong bonds are fostered. i'm really proud of my team and myself.

the highest - national vertical marathon
my first marathon ever. it was a fast one...
completed within 30 mins
less torturous HAHA (:
hopefully i can complete my first 10k run this year.

the most awghsome - cac orientation camp
awghsome is actually the second name for our Ingenium camp.
it was my first time experiencing cac camp.
the feeling was different from a school camp
my contribution to the camp was the money made and goodie bags produced.
it fell short of my personal expectation
but its my motivation now to do a better job for cynosure next year.
in fact i have some ideas about cynosure already hahaha!!!
super enthu hor?
it was also the warmth that cac showered me that
i decided to run cac for another year.
it's a super big commitment can HAHA!!!

the most beautiful - Cynosure Ball
it was my second time entering a pageant
this time to represent orientation camp committee.
the night was awesome because i looked glamorous on stage
if you were there, you can vow for me...
although i didnt win anything.
i used to be really shy, on stage and off stage.
it came to a surprise that i could do things i never thought i can
dance, act and speak in front of strangers.
to be honest, i kind of love the attention.
i began to be less affected by others.
never let anybody tell you what you can or cannot do.

the most familiar - tuition
i may not have the smartest students
but they were still awesome.
it was the 4th year and
i felt a bit stagnant already.
i promise i will complain less and have
more passion about tuition this year.

the best - completed my uni studies.
no more CBC modules no more exam.
it's kind of good because you can
start earning money haha
but i will miss the days when i learn
new chemistry concepts.
honestly, chemistry interests me!
in any case, i grad with a 2nd upper
for chem major and 1st class for business minor.
HAHAHAHAHEEHEEEHEEEE!

the coolest - Santarina in Snow City
i never thought i would have a chance to be santarina.
like how can right?!
it was the first time i felt so good about myself.
it's like you are so popular and you are the
center of attention. everyone treated you like santarina and stuff.
it's a little vain but i think all girls love to feel this way right? HAHA!
it was the coolest experience ever
because i had to survive in minus degree in that outfit.
it's been a long time since i last went out to work.
a real working experience where you need to learn how to deal with it.
i'd say snow city taught me to be a better person.
as a Santarina, i needed to know how to deal with customers.
as you know, people always say i give others a black face.
but i didnt mean it most of the times.
at work, i need to make sure i smile, use thank you and welcome
even the way you point... need to use thumb to point at them.
i became really polite you know. its good really!
not forgetting the hardship experienced.
at snow city, im a worker and boss ordered me around.
all good, i really don't regret working there.

the most painful - fell down and got 4 scars.
i cannot tahan pain and i'm vain.

the sweetest and the worst- heart break.
we met wrong people every now and then
it's so common... but we learn.
22 already still single. people around me are worried
but what can i do right?
okay lah, i admit im pretty lazy when it comes to affairs of the heart.
I NEVER DO FYP (FIND YOUR PARTNER)
and that's not my goal for 2012 either.

my life in 2011 was pretty worthwhile I would say
if i need to summarise, i'd say its pretty well-done.
as i was typing this... many pictures are running in my head.
all the beautiful and unforgettable moments with all the important people in my life.
i love to learn from others...
i glad i met so many new people and
there are so much i can learn from them.

i'm really grateful for everything i had in the year 2011, be it good or bad.
i'd say as i grew older, especially at this juncture, life is full of uncertainties.
honestly, i really don't know what i want in life, but that's okay.
i worked with many small goals.
now when i looked back, i'm pretty surprised by how much i have attained.

come 2012, i want to be happy everyday. it's not easy.
i want to wake up every mornin feeling motivated
because i'm doing what i like and going to sleep every night
feeling satisfied because i accomplished something that day.

i want to work really really hard.
better still, turn into a workaholic.

i need more enlightenment in life.

first half of 2012 already planned, good and bad.
INTERNSHIP at MAHACHEM!!!
my aim is to be a first-class intern (:

2012 please be nice to me because i want to be a better person!

20th Dec

2011-12-20T14:23:00.001+08:00

风筝有风海豚有海　　
我存在在我的存在　　
所以明白所以离开　　
所以不再为爱而爱　　
自己存在在你之外

17th Dec

2011-12-17T22:35:00.002+08:00

so much in mind now and i do not know where to start writing.
maybe 3 words to summarize...

坚强, 勇敢, 自立.

14th Dec

2011-12-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

hellohello!

i love my packed schedule.
came back from JB and HK!

6th Dec YEP Eagles' JB trip!!!
a day well spent eating, movie, k-boxing and eating!

then it's my HK trip for 5 days(:
i might blog about it when i have time off next week LOL

went out with friends and we took photos with hunks!
such awesome publicity tactic i must say HAHA! (:

oh we had LELE pot before that. what a cute name right!
it's $20.80 nett for 2 soups.
the tom yam soup is really fabtabulous!!!
i want to go back again and finish the soup LOL!!!

it's 3rd and the last day of kids' world tomorrow
less of an emotional attachment this time
more of a slacken mode. LOL!!!

5th Dec

2011-12-05T12:48:00.009+08:00

hellohello!!!

i'm back! dec is really a month full of fun!!!
at least for the past few days.

i started work on friday.
as a santarina mascot. apparently the crowd
wasnt in the xmas mood yet so they didnt
get excited seeing santa and me. :(
anyway i had so much fun saying hello,
shaking hands and giving sweets to the kids.
i realised i love kids HAHA!!! (:
they are really cute in the big jacket
machiam like little penguins HAHA!!!
especially have a "fetish" for kids in red jacket LOL!!!

this is my outfit! i can wear this out every dec lah!
i needed to buy this costume for this job HAHAHA!!!
so far so good lah... i love my job
but i hate my supervisor :P

the thing i hate about my job is im required
to enter the ice chamber in this outfit.
how is that possible?! it is -5 deg C inside leh...
hahaha so i will go in take photo and quickly run out!
but its fun leh... you wont feel sleepy in the cold. LOL

Saturday morning at 615am... iBear headed to DESARU!
it was a pre-grad trip for us i guess and also to celebrate
EXAM-NO-MORE!!! (:
they are so fun! i love my uni life mainly because of my clique.
they made uni, studying and everything so fun! (:
we are truly amazing that we even striked 4D HAHAHA!!!
so our trip is FREEEEE!!! LOL!!!
i guess the place is not that fun after all...
it's really the company that matters.
when we did all the funny yet bo liao stuff
when we talked about all the serious, not serious stuff
when we saw "something" and laughed at our own jokes
when we joked with the tour guide
when we went to shop around
when we slept in the bus
everything and everything... i saved them in my heart.

haha i'm watching this idol drama.
nice one lah :)

on a side note, i'm loving my curls
thou i really look old. but i think IT'S SO FUN!!!

1st Dec

2011-12-01T20:14:00.005+08:00

hellohello 1st december!

a few errands to run today.
after all that, i went to have a hair cut.
you know i didnt have a proper haircut
since jan this year?
okay i did trim my fringe and the hairdresser
would be nice enough to help me touch up
on the remaining hair... haha
i think it looked pretty okay am i right?
hahaha!!! but noooo... the ends are okay
but the roots are horrible! wts!
so i went to have it trim before
it gets more disastrous! haha!!!

because i'm a bit out of mind recently...
i had it curled as well LOL!!!
my intention was to increase my hair volume
you know flat hair is very ugly :(
especially on my fat and round fat
so i decided not to do rebonding or what haha

not sure if it will last because
1. my hair are pretty stubborn...
2. i'm lazy, curls got super high maintenance
never mind lah...
maybe after 1 month i will have it dye red
heehee little mermaid ariel is my idol :P
HAHAHA you know i'm out of mind (:

i think curls made me look old leh HAHA!!!
well well, i welcome changes
not too bad since life can be quite boring sometimes.

pretty not?
okay whatever cannot go back anyway haha!

30th Nov

2011-11-30T22:39:00.002+08:00

hellohello!

i completed all my exam papers in NTU!!!
WOoHOoWOoHOo!!!
i don't like exam stress, seriously!

Oct and Nov were awful!
Breathed in and out Chemistry everyday.
No more Chemistry this Dec okay!!!
Lots of fun things coming up...
DEC 2011 is love!!!

suddenly got the feeling to sleeeeeep (:
wanan!

29th Nov

2011-11-29T23:58:00.001+08:00

hello!

i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!
i'm going to ACE my paper!!!

稳稳稳稳稳稳稳稳

28th Nov

2011-11-28T23:29:00.004+08:00

let me blog before all the writing feel vanished.
today is like so important lo haha!!!

i had my first paper this morning.
the first question was a BOOMZ can...
i can still remember it! of all the 230 point groups,
prof chose the 231th - an imaginary point group.
i had practically no idea what the heck.
okay... i'm still very amazed! HAHA! :D
it literally diminished my hope of scoring.
我总该记得什么 haha!!! P 21 screw/ n glide that is!
人生中有很多事是徒劳无功的.
HAHA a quote from 那些年...
in less 10 hours time, i already forgotten what point group is,
but i am still leading my life (: a good one, i hope!

also, i ended tuition for this academic year today!
i cannot believe leh... its 28th nov
and i finally ended it. what a super long run!
i'm too preoccupied with exam and
i don't feel much about it. more like a load
off my shoulder. HAHA before i will start
to feel the difference after a week or two.

read notes (:

25th Nov

2011-11-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

hellohello.

the other day i had tuition on the day before chem paper 2.
as you know there's a new component in the paper,
its call PLANNING, which means students are required to plan an experiment,
do some calculation and answer some lab based qns.
it's a bit like SPA skill A B and D combined together.
IT'S VERY LAME IN MY OPINION.
because i haven't been through it,
it's very difficult for me to teach
and the scope is really broad...
any experiment can come out and
as a chemistry undergrad, there are some things
which you don't really need to make sense out of it,
seriously. at jc level, its even harder to understand, am i right?
xiaohui have a bad learning attitude,
i believe you dont need to know everything to get an A.
but as a tuition teacher i cannot say that right...
i need to be encouraging and teach the right thing.

i think my student is doing fine already...
but she started sobbing as she was flipping her notes.
i got a shock.
why she cry???
she told me she cannot finish studying...
i suck at consoling people.
so i told her dont worry,
you dont need to know everything
just consolidate what you know
and dont worry about what you dont know...
by the way she was really vexed over KINETICS
which i highly doubt it will come out
and its really tough to plan an experiment...
so i told her that.
if its organic or thermodyn i might react differently lah...

its my first time facing such a situation.
a bad bad experience.
at least she cried in front of me...
its good she vent out her frustration
before she continue with her revision.
i'm meeting her this weekend,
hope she will be fine then (:
as a tutor i feel really bad about a student crying in front of me.
it's like i haven't been doing a good job.
she didn't trust me enough.
i didn't give her enough confidence.
it's just bad. but it's okay, i think she will do alright eventually
and i hope she won't get too affected by chemistry.
life goes on with or without chemistry.

haha you know something?
after i started giving tuition,
i will thank my tutor for teaching me via an email one leh.
i think it's really very important to make your tutor feel appreciated.
HAHA!!! a simple thank you is good enough.
if only all my tutees do that. haha!!!

I'm having last weekend of tuition for this year!
May it be good (:

24th Nov

2011-11-24T18:16:00.001+08:00

don't make someone a priority if they only make you an option.
even if they make you as an option, they'll never take it anyway.

19th Nov

2011-11-19T01:14:00.001+08:00

Another 11 mugging days then
I'm done with CBC!!!

the tune is stuck in my head!!! tanya, you win!
but it's really a nice song.
i shan't be emo i shan't.
jia you with mugging!

17th Nov

2011-11-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

so hard to remember
so hard to forget

16th Nov

2011-11-16T01:01:00.001+08:00

15th Nov

2011-11-15T12:51:00.000+08:00

风筝有风海豚有海
我存在在我的存在
所以明白所以离开
所以不再为爱而爱

自己存在在你之外

13th Nov

2011-11-13T01:17:00.003+08:00

hellohello

what are some things i cannot do without?

1. mummy!
she isnt a thing i know but
she's the most awesome person on earth.
i love her and i need her.

2. spectacles/ contact lens
i want to see the beautiful yet ugly world.

3. retainers.
ok. i'm just vain.
but i believe a beautiful smile gives me confidence
and brings joy to others *teeth grinning smile*

i don't know why i have all the weirdest thoughts
when i'm mugging haha!!!

没有不会淡的疤
没有不会好的伤
没有不会停下来的绝望
so, 你在烦恼什么?

10th Nov

2011-11-10T00:17:00.001+08:00

please don't tell me where/what i'm going to be in 7 months time.
suddenly i'm so afraid to commit into anything.
i want space i want freedom i want to have
the choice to do what i want and not do what i don't want to.
i want to travel around i want to see the world.
well this may sound really childish
but i'm just afraid i might waste my life away like that.

anyway... i missed my last lecture in cbc unintentionally.
because i thought there's still one more lecture on thursday...
but prof cancelled it last minute.
the feeling is weird.
you know...
i never ever fall asleep during lecture before
actually i did once in cbc 122,
i fell asleep during review lecture
because the content was too straight forward
and the prof was really boring...
i regretted it a lot so i made sure i studied hard for that module.
well... never sleep doesnt mean got pay attention.
you must know how monotonous and boring scientists/researchers are.
they literally talk to themselves.
read off from the horrible slides.
the stuff are also chim on the first glance so
i always drift during lectures...
especially with my iphone these days...
last time we can only sms
now we can surf we can whatsapp we can play games...
i wonder how lectures are going to be in 2-3 years time...
maybe everyone will be using ipad! e-notes! HAHA!!!
okay lah... none of my business ...
i won't be an undergrad anymore.

the end is actually another beginning.
look forward.
another addition to my "to-miss" list...
i will miss the days in ntu.
okay lah...still got another 6 months
before i'm leaving ntu.
leave all the emotional stuff till my convocation entry
HAHA!!!

i just mugged one sub-chapter and i feel like a jc student.
when i first did DNA in jc,
i hate it. because so many things weren't clear at that time
and we were the first batch and the notes really cmi!
then during year 1, i had to take this biochem module
and i relearnt DNA. at year 4, i am learning it again.
the content is really getting simpler...
no, i really didnt get any smarter.
why are profs shortchanging us by teaching us less?
is that the real meaning of learning?
i got pay tuition fees one leh :P
sorry i always digress! haha.

9th Nov

2011-11-09T22:25:00.004+08:00

don't know since when,
running has become my favourite past time.
i remember faking up MCs back in my jc days
just to escape from the weekly 2.4km training.
i thought it's really impossible to run that far...
actually no. mentality is everything
you just need to focus on every single steps
you made ... step by step, you will go a great distance. eventually.
i love to run under the sun, along with the air-so-still or against the cold wind
maybe slight drizzle too.
it's all good.
i especially love to run under the hot sun.
you don't even feel like you are sweating
because the sweat would have evaporated as you run.
but i feel more like a roasted pig. HAHA

i love to look around as i run.
my running place got nothing fanciful...
maybe some constructive workers,
some aunties and ah-mas, little toddlers,
some soccer guys and stray cat.

yes that particular stray cat.
it saddens me to see the cat ...
the cat is dirty with orange and grey patches on the body.
if you didnt take a closer look,
you might not even spot it,
cause it can blend in quite nicely with the grass and everything.
if you look closely into their eyes, you get the "anger stare"...
they are abandoned/unwanted.
i think that is why they can't control themselves
from being so reflexively fierce/harmful to strangers (like me).
but im innocent and i never dare go near a cat or do anything funny.
you know there are cruel people who cut their tails away?
bully and injured them?
i feel for them. my love-hate relationship with cats.

i don't know why i typed all these. haha!!!

you are not alone...
if only the cat can understand what i'm saying... LOL

6th Nov

2011-11-06T18:46:00.002+08:00

All things really do happen for a reason. I believe it. I kept questioning why God allowed certain things to happen to me or why certain people enter my life with no intention on staying. But I know there is a reason for open doors, and there is a reason for closed doors. Closed doors at that time may seem heart-breaking like I had experienced the past month but all closed doors eventually lead to an open door. I never question God about a good day, so I shouldn’t question him about a bad day.

This too shall pass.

6th Nov

2011-11-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." - Marilyn Monroe

2nd Nov

2011-11-02T22:52:00.005+08:00

it's e-learning week
but there's no recorded lecture uploaded
so i'm watching online dramas LOL!!!
don't slap me
actually i got other things to do
tuition everyday and need to plan what to teach
but WTS i'm a little sick of it.

IN TIME WITH YOU.
in love with the storyline.
don't understand...
why young girls got so much expectations?
why guys like younger girls?
why girls like younger boys?
is it because
when you are young you can afford to be hopeless romantic?
as you get older,
expectations lowered and you are more practical and realistic?

is it love for yourself?

1st Nov

2011-11-01T11:25:00.003+08:00

oh my god oweful october is over!
it's Nov and i cannot wait for dec and 2012 to come.
another 30 days of cbc and i'm done! YAYNOOO!
lazy to think!
some photos.
look what work has done to me.

out of mind, double chin, dark rings, eyebags
depressed sulken face messy hair
whatever lah... it's the mugging period
look like shit then look like shit
who cares right?

1st Nov, O level Chemistry!!! JUST CHIONG!!!

25th Oct

2011-10-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

another 36 days before i kick start PROJECT40!
hahaha!!! it means after final exam, I will
exercise more often, control my diet and to slim
myself down to 40kg.
Am weighing at 41.3kg now! FREAKFAT!!!
the bad thing is, it's increasing by the days!!!
after 36 days, i may hit 43kg or whatwhatwhat?
so excited.
i mean slimming down is good...
not only you look good,
you will feel light and good,
and it's definitely good for health.

anyway, i did my 9km run the other day.
the after-feeling was fabtabulous okay!!!
i shall do more when i have the mood.
maybe, 10k or 12k HAHAHA
if only the 9k is $9000 LOL!!!
but you know people who run long dist
are actually unhealthy? HAHA!!!

23rd Oct

2011-10-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

hellohello!!!

it's a ________ sunday.
i don't have a correct word to describe it.

some days I feel like supergirl
& some days I feel like a lousy girl.
some days and some days I wish I could
have my piece of silence.

18th oct

2011-10-18T00:44:00.004+08:00

is it normal to feel this way?

Here's a family photo taken about 19 years ago
we grew up, they grew older and some left.
blood is thicker than water.
i'm very afraid one day we will break apart.
it's a priceless photo thou incomplete.
but it looked really complete :S
big and small uncle not inside.
i realise my father also not inside LOL!

life's random and unpredictable.
last friday my mum's wound bleed profusely
on her way home...
she nearly lost her life from too much blood lost
i mean what shit right!?
then she was hospitalised for one night
and we were billed $200 over.
what the shit right?!
and the next day was her birthday lo!
okay... i need a stronger heart.
i need to build a stronger heart.

12th Oct

2011-10-12T14:40:00.002+08:00

Shopping is a MUST, LOL!

11th Oct

2011-10-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

用期待加上宽容　　
在加无止境乐观和等候　　
以为这些付出等于美好结果　　
你却说凭什么? 　　

我相信你爱护我
只是爱没有想像中的多　　
对天空的辽阔来说云算什么　　
你不会懂我渺小得多宽容　　

爱你不重我要自己不要放开手　　
不痛不痛心却独自跳的好寂寞　　
幸福那一个美梦是二人同行才有　　
你渐渐缺席让我被挡在未来的入口　　
爱你不重尽管我无力再向前走　　
不痛不痛就算心哭的震耳欲聋　　
爱你我爱到最后剩回忆这个朋友　　
爱情从二人同行变成我一个默默后承受　　

我想过很多以后幻想过快乐也愉悦心痛　　
爱就像是偏执的风带我升空　　
只问前进忘了要怎么降落　　

10th Oct

2011-10-10T00:11:00.004+08:00

My life seems to be going wrong these days.
I feel like I'm all alone sometimes
and I wish that I could sleep so
no one can bring me more trouble/work/anymore shit.
I'm not weak...

9th Oct

2011-10-09T22:21:00.001+08:00

everytime i wanted to listen to 忽然
i ended up listening to 忽然之间.
both are equally nice (:(:(:

8th Oct

2011-10-08T20:30:00.002+08:00

I don't like to shower but I love to keep myself clean.
I'm shy but friendly and outgoing.
I'm soft-spoken but really talkative.
I don't like crowds I really hate it.
I spend time alone with myself.
I love to sleep!
I wanted to sleep very badly now!
I'm so bored!!!

7th Oct

2011-10-07T02:32:00.001+08:00

tonight i was listening to this song...

你的回话凌乱着　　
在这个时刻　　
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽　　
甜蜜散落了　　
情绪莫名的拉扯　　
我还爱你呢　　
而你断断续续唱着歌　　
假装没事了　　
时间过了走了　　
爱情面临选择　　
你冷了倦了我哭了　　
离开时的不快乐　　
你用卡片手写着　　
有些爱只给到这真的痛了　　
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢　　
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了　　
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍　　
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得　　
你不等了说好的幸福呢　　
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了　　
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢　　

6th Oct

2011-10-06T01:39:00.002+08:00

I forgot what I wanted to type
How forgetful can I be?

Okay I was listening to this ...

能约出来的人都约光

能吃得下的早餐已吃光

很用力谈笑比哭还绝望

怎么挨得到打烊

我以为痛苦可以分散

于是我忙到不能再忙

忙到忘记了洗掉你所有短讯

一字一巴打在我脸上

思念太猖狂一个冷不防

一想起你忙碌的生活变得空荡荡

对心事说谎把你想到多么的不堪

伟大的你还想我怎样

我以为工作能够疗伤

甚至恨不得病倒再算

没力气遐想谁知瘫痪在床上

越发渴望你就在身旁

你也太猖狂一个冷不防

睡到一半才觉醒疗伤先要哭一场

对世界说谎只把自己哄骗得更惨

想得到释放只有投降

5th Oct

2011-10-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

hellohello!

You know what happened this morning?
It was raining silently outside and I slept till 1143am
when my lecture starts at 130pm.
Now you know how un-motivated I'm for school.
I have a mid-term (25%) next Tuesday... tmd sian!
Okay lah I already lost 6% in the previous mid-term,
what's the point of working so damn hard right
when you know B+ is the best you can get?
tmd sian to the max!
pardon me for scolding tmd so many many times.
I kinda look forward to Members' Night next thursday haha
okay there isn't many things for me to look forward to these days.
It's a dumb cycle. school tuition mug! ROAR!!!!

okay this blog has no meaning...
it's just some unhappy thoughts in my head.

I want to slim down. ROAR!!!

I'm kinda sick of waiting for something to happen.

3rd Oct

2011-10-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

你忙,忘了我需要人陪.
你忙,忘了我也会寂寞.
你忙,忘了我在等你.
你知不知道
感情不是等你有空的时候才来珍惜的...

im guilty as charged.

30th Sept

2011-09-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

hellohello!!!

i passed my interview!!! BIG HURRAY!!!
just received an email notification to confirm my position.
i will be doing my internship in an office, not lab :D
to speak the truth, i'm scared > excited
don't know what to anticipate and stuff ...
it's not time to worry about it now HAHA!!!
IA SETTLED!!! :D
tomorrow is the beginning of Oct.
time flies when you are busy eh?
FULL FORCE FOR TUITION!!!
another 6 - 7 weeks only !!! Jia You!

如果说这是爱醒来好像梦一场
如果说这是爱我情愿去流浪
如果说这是爱我情愿被遗忘

29th Sept

2011-09-29T17:39:00.004+08:00

28th Sept - SWC 1st Cohesion + BBQ session
it was better than expected though the attendance wasnt that fantastic.
the old comm, new comm and the pageant contestants were invited.
haha!!! i had 2 identities so it was easier for me to blend in :P

spot me in my OL look LOL!!!
i came down right after my interview

actually i didnt eat the BBQ food LOL
the fishballs, crabsticks and sanwiches were enough to stuff me.

playing "risk"! haha!!!
i've no strategy...
i JUST FIGHT AND JUST DEFEND and i WON!!!
JUST FIGHT JUST FIGHT JUST FIGHT

group photo with the top 3 sitted down
but i was sitted because of my injuries LOL

we went to play bowling and pool before the birthday party
coincidentally we wore the cac tshirt and hence we are a team

i went for an interview for intern position.
actually i think i really need
to attend interview workshop and learn how to
create a GOOD first impression.
i secretly love to be in such formal outfit.
haha, you look smart for no reason. LOL!
not sure about the outcome but i totally
enjoyed the interview session
it's like i really have a lot to talk to them
and a lot to share with the interviewers
and they were willingly listening to me
out of politeness? LOL!
i'm glad that it's over.
anyway nothing to lose right... HAHA!!!

okay, go facebook to stalk my photos
for the birthday party of XML!
actually i really dislike attending birthday party leh
when can i stop attending them...
its like im old enough to start attending wedding dinners LOL

27th Sept

2011-09-27T00:13:00.001+08:00

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?"

-Akeelah and the Bee

23rd Sept

2011-09-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

hellohello
supposedly an awesome friday evening at home
but all the pain from my injuries is spoiling it.
seeing the wounds and scars ... oh my tian, can i just
use sand paper to smoothen it? :(

it's been a long time since i feel good about myself.
no longer believing in how good xiaohui can be or xiaohui is.
i feel lost these days or maybe months.
clueless as to where i'm heading to.
sometimes i like uncertainties but certainly not this time.
recently i started to envision myself in 1 year time.
will i end up in labcoat, corporate wear or smart casual?
will i be working in a lab handling chemicals and analysing data
or sitting in an office with documents and going out to meet clients
or in a classroom teaching and do other work in the staffroom?
my goals changed every now and then and i realise
i didn't want to set a goal at this point and say i die die must do this
because i don't want it to close doors to other opportunities that may arise.
recently i started to doubt why am i even in chemistry?
am i even heading in the right path
if it is a wrong one how to correct it
i'm so afraid im heading to a wrong path.

that aside, is there something you want to have?
then someone came and took it away?
would you retaliate or let the person have it?

i find myself too honest and frank sometimes.
can die because of this.
but don't try to read me like a book.

i think some thing is not quite right with me
that's why i will trip and fall so badly. HAHA

it's time to think about it.

okay i think this is getting totally out of point
but at least i get to air my thoughts lalala

when am i not happy that my last recess week is here?

new photo badge.
i love the CAC t-shirt. simple and nice.

21st Sept

2011-09-21T18:15:00.002+08:00

呱呱叫

i fell down on my way to school.
i don't know what happened exactly
from what i can recall, i fell and looked like a turtle.
my slipper landed quite far from me.
i think i kicked the drain and i flew off.
because of that, my knee caps and left palm were rubbed.
the skin was rubbed, peeled then bleed. yucks!
fortunately my right hand was totally unhurt.
i can still write and sit for test tomorrow.
luckily for my face too.
but the pain from all the injuries is unbearable.
i do get numb sometimes because its quite painful
and uncomfortable to move my legs :S
my threshold for pain is that low.
you will foresee that bathing is a problem :S
how to not let the wound touch water?
how to wash hair with one hand? or bath with one hand?
so my mum asked me to tape using the plastic paper
which rendered me useless. cannot even bend properly
cannot touch my toes... i need to sit on the toilet bowl
and do sit and reach which i totally sucked at it.

sleep is the best la~... at least don't feel that sizzling pain
but i got midterm tomorrow and i need to revise ): damn sian!

now cannot walk properly and cannot even run
better sweat less if not need to bath again which is a headache.
one week of shit.
pain, scar and money! ARGGHHHH ):

19th Sept

2011-09-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
我不明白
为什么那么相信

16th Sept

2011-09-16T21:35:00.006+08:00

hellohello (:

i need a break from mugging.
week 7 up next and i have 3 midterms
when i'm taking only 3 modules this sem.
a little exaggerated HAHA!!!
actually I'm very motivated to master everything well
I really want to get more As for chem modules.
TRYING TO! i know it's not easy and
i seriously think my brain is not working well.
how to remember all the reaction strategies,
mechanisms, names and every little details?
it's the testsss stress!

anyway, i kind of disappointed with the people around me
or maybe it's just how opinionated I'm these days.
people around you just can't be trusted.
nobody actually bother if you are happy or not, sad or not.
people who speak the loudest are actually liars.
and people just can't differentiate between truth and lie.
sometimes i find it so meaningless to engage in conversations.
because i know whatever is hear is BS and
whatever said is FEI HUA!
sometimes people concealed so well until
you dont even know how to read them.
time is so cruel don't you think so.
i don't know why i have such negativeness within me,
it's so scary. the world is so scary and i don't know
how to react and respond sometimes.
you don't even know who will betray you the next second.
i really wish to go back to those days in Cambodia,
life would be simpler.

that aside,
i don't like mooncakes. i don't understand
why spend so much money eating paste?!
havin said that, i hate to eat paos too!

okay,
i cannot wait for recess to come.

11th Sept

2011-09-11T18:43:00.003+08:00

i hate to make decision.
all the choices are too tempting!

10 years ago, when i was 12, i needed to do
sec school application around this period too.
10 years later, now at 22, i need to do iip application.
how time flies!!!
at that time, my mum could offer me an advice.
she told me to choose aiss because it is 3 mins walking dist from home.
save time save money.
i thought it was good.
this time i got option A & B
i asked her for an opinion
she told me to choose A
haha, i ignored and went ahead to choose B.
not that im rebellious or what
but i really regretted going aiss
when i could have gone to better sch.
from then on, whatever she said will be eliminated LOL!!!

i hope i won't regret.
keeping fingers crossed and
please shortlist me to interview
if not, i will have to emo for 5 months ):
LOL!!!

9th Sept

2011-09-09T13:06:00.002+08:00

hellohello i'm back
actually i'm not busy at all...
it's considered quite a relax week.
BUT, my keyboard is sick...
"a" button spoiled and "s" button sot sot!
so i cant type ... lazy to type with a "a" copied and pasted...
you get what i mean?
it's a pain to type for the past 4days!
now, with my newly bought external keyboard...
hahaha im motivated to type more so as
to get used to the new keyboard LOL!!!

had 422 midterm on monday
it was surprisingly okay (: haha!

attended my friend's dad's wake on Tuesday.
first time attending a wake not of my relatives.
the feeling was weird. i don't know how to describe.
but i guess EAGLEs made the atmosphere less awkward
by talking about anything under the sun.
it doesnt have to be that solemn after all.
the friend of mine is very strong and optimistic.
i'm glad.

it's CAC 1st Freshmen Bash on wednesday at velvet underground.
went down to support my freshies
and also to see the standard of this pageant. HAHA
i think im going to boycott that agency for cynosure already
LOL its good to meet friends there and have an awesome great time ketchup-ing!
of course, everyone looked so gorgeous that night! (:

yesterday, SWC (Social Welfare Club), which is under CAC,
had our first official main comm meeting!
i was pretty excited about it.
in the circle of familiar and unfamiliar faces,
i found hope! haha hoping that we will bond and work well.
i shall embrace it with an open heart and mind (:
the setting was familiar yet different.
chairperson different, people inside different,
style of meeting different...
but it's all good...
Yes, I've embarked on a new journey yet again...

& IA application started this week...
i need to apply :( kinda lost you know?
i really hope to try and do something im interested in... ):
well i know interest dont last...
but its better than doing sth you dont even like right?
pray for myself :P

OH! I WANT TO CUT MY HAIR SHORT...
LIKE REAL SHORT ... HAHAHA!

2nd Sept

2011-09-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

30th Aug

2011-08-30T22:45:00.004+08:00

haha!!! I'm back feeling happy.
but health isn't on the good side.

anyway, i did cbc422 tutorial, no,
to be exact, i printed the solution and read it.
LOL!!! not that i want to but my notes really suck.
okay... i didn't achieve much today
but i'm enjoying it very much...
the fate of a part time student LOL!

29th Aug

2011-08-29T00:08:00.001+08:00

I'm beginning to realise how lonely this life could be and would be.
How people are just passer-bys, they come and they go :(
Sorry for being so emo tonight.
Everything will be fine after a sleep (:

27th Aug

2011-08-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

i am 22years 1 week and 1day old.
my 21st year of life zoomed past
and i reckon it's good. i really enjoyed
my 21st year of life a lot.

it was my 3rd year in university.
i did relatively better compared to the first 2 years. LOL!!!
completed my business minor
which i really liked and enjoyed!!! :D:D:D

i decided to take on YEP/OCIP
because i really wanted to challenge myself
to live in a different environment to understand
my personal strengths and weaknesses.
it really expanded my horizon
and made me cherish the little happiness around me.
reciprocity, you know?
i realised the power of simple aspirations -
for the peace and contentment in life.

i was given a chance to join CAC family
which ended up earning more than what I expected.
Friends, Opportunities and Experiences.
All priceless.
they said it's a dumb cycle...
i think you are the dumb if you don't join. :D

I felt the love warmth and concern from the people around me.
so much so that i felt really blessed.
you may think that i'm greedy...
but i really want all the love.

because i'm heavily involved outside,
for the past one year, for the past 3 months in particular,
i have been a vvv bad friend, a vvv lousy sister and a HORRIGIBLE daughter.
i neglected my loved ones.
i cannot fight this sense of guilt.
it will always be a pity above all the good and fun times i had.

to summarize, its still awesome :D:D:D

as i unconsciously entered 22nd year of my life ,
i still hope it'd be another blessed year.
my hope to learn, to experience and to achieve as much as i can.
to live life with no regrets.
of course, it would a transition phase
as i'm going to embark on Internship attachment,
Graduation and Entering the working world...
I HOPE TO FIND A STABLE JOB
& EARN MONEY TO SUPPORT MY FAMILY
BEFORE I TURN 23 HAHA!!!
but i'm kinda lost now, what to do what to do??? LOL!!!

happy 22nd, Xiaohui.
I wish for health and happiness for you and your loved ones.

26th Aug

2011-08-26T00:02:00.003+08:00

imma addicted to My Love by Hebe :D

Tonight, I feel like crying...
because of the beautiful memories left behind.
The past 3 months flew past and it was simply awed.

I made a lot of friends.
I love the company.
We know, feeling fades and time will tell.
I changed a lot, to a better person, over the months.

I'm not an expressive person you should already know by now. I feel a lot but I just couldn't express myself. The video pnp did brought back a lot of memories right from day one of FOC journey. Indeed "one club, many friends, unlimited oppurtunities". I experienced and learnt a lot through cac! Sonetimes I really regretted why I knew and got into cac so late! I entered FOC comm with a simple intention, to be a biz mag and do what a biz mag ought to. But, I took away more than what I expected. Being involved in Vday filming. Chosen to be in dance comm, which I still don't know why, but, it got me more involved in FOC. Being a main comm attached during senior and actual camps and made many friends and felt more bonded to cac. Being selected for Cynosure ball which I had totally no idea what's all about at first. I dont know why I'm typing all these, I guess I'm too thankful for everything but I don't know how to say it personally! Time really flies, its been a year of hard work, FOC had came to an end but my cac journey hasn't.

FOC committee 2011
We are the Blondes Actually!!!

http://youtu.be/T03LYcMqymM

Finally a picture with all of us inside (:
Ingenium, Let's Go! We are Awghsome!!!

Not just a committee, we are friends :D

They are a bonus I got from FOC.
I was a main-comm attached to this OG - URLEY!!!
yeah, just chiong!

Additional bonus from joining CAC...
my Cynosure friends (:

People say bad memories cause the most pain
but, beautiful memories are the ones that drive you insane.

23rd Aug

2011-08-23T23:27:00.003+08:00

hellohello
I'm back into the blogosphere!!! :D

let's start from where i left off.

17th Aug
CAC recruitment drive.
i went for an interview to join SWC.
fyi is Social and Welfare Club.
it's under CAC and we will be organising
members' night and dinner and dance cum pageant!
awesome aye?
after that,
pageant friends and i had a stayover party
in school, ADM, to be exact.
HTHT and they drank and we nua-ed till 4-ish am.
the next day i woke up at 8am
because my friend got class at 9am :S

18th Aug
Chalet with the CBC clique.
i think we are too happening already.
but i reckon there's a good getaway from work
and we nua-ed together :D

19th Aug
it's my second 21st birthday.
they did a mini celebration for me.
i really appreciated it :D

20th Aug
at 4am, i headed to the airport to send my friend off.
happening eh?
stayed till 7am then proceeded to tuition.
i tell you, CAN DIE from not enough sleep
and the hangover from all the drinking.
HAHA!!!
whole day of tuition then i went for
FOC gathering cum buffet.
i don't know how i survive the day but i did.

21st Aug
tuition in the day
then in the evening, we had cynosure qing gong yan!
awesome to see the pageant friends again
and to give recognition to the committee who worked
so hard to provide everything for us.

22nd Aug
BACK TO SCHOOL!

23rd Aug
had first CA for this semester worth 25%
i really glad i made my way through
because i really had no time to study
and the content didnt interest me lol!!!

okay i'll be attending CAC rally tomorrow.
super eat-full-nothing-to-do.
but no choice ya!!!

anyway, i got selected into SWC committee :D
yipeeee as a biz mag, small role, yes,
i want it this way because year 4 already what,
cannot take big role cause I'll be away for IA for like 22weeks
or 6 months... LOL!!! i'll be doing convocation stuff again!!! :D
i was offered cac exco biz director but i rejected.
reason as above.
if i were to be year 2/3 , i would accept it with no hesitation.
well, thing didnt come at the right time.

okay i should start studying
really hate the feeling of being so lost in a lecture.
i'll try to revise over the long weekend. TRY only!

i just went shopping! i wish i have more money!!! :P

16th Aug

2011-08-16T00:36:00.005+08:00

I'm really the luckiest girl ever
because I'm showered with all the love I need.

Cynosure ball ended.
Of course I didn't win but I'm fine.
I won a lot of cheers and applause from the audiences
those whom I know and I don't know.
You know some things are just quite dark.
That aside.

Here's a narration of my cynosure journey.
I thought it was long and draggy...
but now I take back my words,
it's actually bittersweet (:

Cynosure journey started on 4th Jul,
right after I came back from Cambodia.
We had the girls' photoshoot.
I remember on the day of the shoot,
I knew no one and I was very confused
about the theme and almost everything.
When my programmer gave me a briefing
as to what I need to do for the event, I was oh whatever!
Photoshoot was a disaster I think I mentioned before
because I couldn't act fierce and I was in a bad state.
Anyway, I received compliments for that pirate photo.
HAHA! I'm happy of course.

5th Jul, we had our first modelling training.
nothing much as you know how much i don't like that agency.

8th Jul, first mass dance training!
oh god ! you know how sucky I'm at counting beats
and remembering dance steps?
i was mad stress because everyone was good!
my partner is a hiphop dancer somemore
super super stress to learn the dance well.
no choice, i came to a consensus to try my very best.
i remembered all the moves taught :D

subsequently we had our weekly training on dance and catwalking.

it was only after CAC FOC that my super nua-sai partner
and i finally worked on our couple talent time piece.
i needed to learn guitar.
it was a wrong decision.
because guitar is too big for my hand
and i can't strum it well.
i cannot even press the chords :S
no choice, no time already, die die also must learn it.
i learnt "qing tian" that intro portion.
my partner, he gotmusic background so he learnt
the chorus portion. hes really nice to accommodate me lol
because he wanted to play piano and another piece
but no choice... his partner damn chui LOL!!!

then my programmer went to find a video of
the high sch musical and jun yang and i blatantly copied it
and learnt it within 2 days LOL!!! it was not bad!

on the actual day, my make-up and hair were beautifully done.
it literally brightened up my mood.
i like the tribal feel and i feel quite princessy :P

all the segments were swee swee done! :D

my thank you message i posted on our FB group

it has been a privilege to be part of the Cynosure 2011 and i hope the journey could have been longer. i would like to extend my appreciation for the SWC committee for taking great care of us.
giving us food and making sure we are well-fed before each training and all the hard work you guys have put in for us be it the planning or support side.
i would like to show my greatest appreciation for our dance instructor Constance. she is always so patience repeating herself and doing all the dance moves with us over and over again just to make sure we look clean on stage.
it must be a difficult time for you to teach a tone-deaf student like me.
& Wei Lin and Ming Xi for coming up and helping us with the skit stuff so that Jun Yang and I are talented enough to go on stage.
& Jason who worked so hard for the event. appreaciate all your videos and recordings!
& Sheena for all the catwalk ques and coolest outfits!
& BB Kristine for making the beautiful posters and the narrations.
& to all the contestants, you are my biggest takeaway!!!

okay here's a summary of what we did.

now that the journey ended, i want to cry.
i miss the days when we attended training
laughed at the slightest mistake we made
nua-ed long time during training

my partner and i had this slogan
"Nua Sai number 1, Bi Sai (competition) number 2"
and we lived up to it LOL!!!
about my partner, okay he's Jun Yang.
i knew about him before Cynosure
because we were in the same group for senior camp.
my first impression of him is, WOW really cute!
that time during senior camp, i didnt talk much to him
because we were both shy, esp to strangers, whos not?
but at least we knew each other.
and coincidentally we were both biz mags!
when i knew that he's going to be my partner
i was quite happy, because i think he is really one of the
better looking ones in the pageant. LOL!!!
we didnt work very well lah and we always fight over the slightest thing
for the sake of fun LOL!!! but he really helped me and lot
for this cynosure and i think we served as each other pillar of strength
because if we will skip training if each of us cannot make it LOL
i told you we were nua-sais right! LOL!!!

okay we have gathering and post-event party this week.
great to see them again i think.

photos and videos on FB :D

12th Aug

2011-08-12T09:20:00.003+08:00

hellohello

in case you are not a follower of my tweets,
CYNOSURE BALL is TOMORROW!

we are going to have our final training today
and full rehearsal tomorrow!
i want it to be over !!! :( :)

week 1 of school is officially over!
i love school but i don't really like
the chemistry we are learning :S
it's dry and boring HAHA!

TGIF, have a blessed weekend (:

8th Aug

2011-08-08T16:29:00.005+08:00

hellohello~
i didn't realise it is national day eve
until i was signing the collection form and needed
to write down the date. haha!!!

anyway today is day 1 of year 4 sem 1.
finally i made it to year 4
after going through all the electives,
long labs and projects.
yes year 4! only core modules for me!
it's kind of weird because school is
like half day every day.
if you add them up, its only worth 2 days of school.
but i need to go sch for 4 days per week.
time inefficient :(
study mood is not there
but i paid full attention during lecture
not very distracted with phone or what.
listening to a lecture is good, i love it.
my lecturers are okay.
their notes are okay.
too early to mug haha!!!
it's been a long time since i last met
the cbc people. oh so many familiar
and boring faces.
the worst thing is... my lectures are all in
spms lt2 and 4, which means i will be stuck there
and i cannot go see eyecandy :(

anyway, i ended the duty as a biz mag today
and i must really do a reflection,
maybe after cynosure ball bahhh :(

6th Aug

2011-08-06T22:28:00.004+08:00

last semester in NTU,
with only 3 core modules.
no elective, no need to do adddrop,
really don't have the go-back to school feel.
i rather do AHSS and BIZ modules, seriously.

anyway, i printed my notes.
the content scared the hell out of me,
normal i guess? haha!!!
i hope they are manageable :)

my timetable is super packed next week.
monday - school, collect items, tuition.
national day - tuition.
wednesday - school, training, meeting.
thursday - school, training, tuition.
friday - training.
saturday - cynosure ball.

okay, i guess this is the last week of 2011 i will be so busy.

yesterday's training left me bruised and aching muscle.
but we settled on our couple talent segment (:

http://www.facebook.com/pages/CAC-Cynosure-Ball-2011-See-Aye-Sea-Ahoy/231359806891156

help me like my photos if you can
i think this is the best motivation :P
i feel unmotivated very easily
its like im battling alone :(
and the rest are so zai :(

if you want tickets, let me know. its at $45.
10 course meal included (:

i need to rest my body.
my eye is okay already.
but my cough, flu and fever are still there.
after coughing for 2 days, my muscles are aching already.
because i coughed too much, i gt headache already.
tian ahhh!
oh before that, i need to do evaluation for foc :(

4th Aug

2011-08-04T00:30:00.003+08:00

hellohello!!!

i'm feeling very stressed right now.
as you know, cynosure ball is like less than 2 weeks away
and my guitar segment is not even settled.
sigh. i'm worried. i really cannot do it :(

anymore, summer break is coming to an end but
it seems like i didn't do enough.
major accomplishments would be Cambodia trip and CAC FOC!
it still feel surreal now that they are over.
i wish the journey would be longer... now that I'm left
with all the memories :(

i came to realise i'm not at all capable.
not good at all.
i cannot juggle everything i wanted.
school, house work, tuitions, cac and yep!
different roles and different responsibilities.
having to switch role every now and then,
it's really hard to manage sometimes.
time was rather limited and i had to give and take
sometimes and at the end of the day,
i'm neither here nor there. sigh.
now, there are some loose ends to tie before
i officially step down and lead a less stressful undergrad life.
okay i need to do an evaluation for cac by Sunday!

i'm thankful for all the opportunities that came along.

i go and strum my guitar now to make myself less guilty :(

3rd Aug

2011-08-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

i have so much to blog
but i don't know where to start!
where is my Cambodia journals?
OMG!!! it's been a month since my return.

1st Aug

2011-08-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

Jolly July is over.
Here comes the Awesomest August!

I miss dining with my family.
It's been 1.5 month since I last eaten with them ):

23rd Jul

2011-07-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

来了... 又走了...
谢谢你赠我空欢喜一场
多希望我能像你一样潇洒

20th Jul

2011-07-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

hello!

another video up!

have fun watching it (:

it's the 18th day since my return from Cambodia.
i hope the videos and pictures i have uploaded
justify why i am so busy.
i really got no time to do other things :(
okay. go back for more work :(

19th Jul

2011-07-19T23:52:00.005+08:00

21 years and 11 months (:

i had an awesome day minus training.
first up, i went for a jap buffet with my long-lost friend.
it was a great catch-up and there were no awkward moments.
the food was average but the company was great!
i never liked sashimi but i think the sashimi over there
was awesome. i had like a bit too many pieces.
of course, CHANWANMUSHI could not be missed.

then, i went to have seoul garden with my friends.
my friend brought along another friend.
guess what. that friend is my pri sch cum sec sch classmate
whom i hardly or never talk to at all.
he changed a lot or maybe i didn't know him in the first place.
what a small world right! hahaha!!!
i love meeting new people (:
learning from them and developing yourself HAHA!!!

anyway, training today was better than expected.
i think they sort of given up hope on us.
but the trainer today recognised me
haha! should i be happy or sad?
i should be happy la he saw like 1000 and 1
faces but he managed to remember plain Jane me.
it's my pleasure totally.
i wasn't in the mood to walk today
and i was niao-ed for being
1. not confident.
2. not focused.
3. not doing properly.
whatever lahhh!!! i cannot really be bothered LOL!!!
but they gave constructive feedback and pointers
which i will pay attention to.
it's the self-directed learning period :D

so the trainer asked, what's on your mind?

i wanted to reply
can you tell me why guys need to put heavy make up
with foundation eyeliner and blusher gaogao?
can act like a man?

can you tell me why guys wear heels and sashay until
like some disgusting piece of shit?

can i puke?

okay i can only be this frank. HAHA

18th Jul

2011-07-18T00:56:00.008+08:00

ENJOY!!!

there are flaws, please close one eye :P
i think i look fat because June is too tall and slim :(
yu xuan, my partner is really a nice person because
he is very tolerating of my mood swing.
i can be eccentric for a moment
and emo-ing for another moment and
being very serious another moment.
edwin is my dance instructor
he is also very patient. he didnt lose temper
even when i made all the stupid mistakes
and being uncooperative. ahhhh they made me feel bad.
this video will boost my confidence to continue
to learn dancing... :D i need to do it during sp dinner
nightmareeeee everydayyyyy!

one more!!!

as you can see... I lagged HAHAHA!!!
because I'm a slow learner :(
but i will try harder each session :P

17th Jul

2011-07-17T23:31:00.006+08:00

Cynosure Journey begins... ... & I'm very stress :(

See Aye See Ahoy
and here is my image as a pirate.
it was better than expected (:
supposed to look fierce but failed. its okay.
i shall be a cheerful pirate (:
btw this was taken the next morning i got back from Cambodia.
not in a tip-top condition ):

Decided not to post my write-up here HAHA!

14th Jul

2011-07-15T00:06:00.004+08:00

Glad that today is over.

I had 2 straight days of dance video filming.
YES its dance video.
Xiaohui cannot dance and I cannot lie.
We did SP dance and fun dance.
SP dance was manageable.
Fun dance was a disaster and I think
I created a lot of trouble for the pub team
and my instructor and dance partner.
To speak the truth, I was under tremendous
pressure to learn everything from scratch.
You know in dance, the moves need to be
done very accurately and swee swee to look
good in the video.
If you cannot do it, then it will look ugly and weird.
I was very worried.
In the end, they had no choice but to cut my
scenes to the very minimal.
I was actually very very very happy with the arrangement
but poor my dance partner, he trained so hard ):

Now, wait for the end product.
I still cannot believe I can dance and get video-ed HAHA!!!

OMG, seriously deprived of sleep.
4.5 hours for wednesday and 4 hours today.
head is terribly in pain now!
i shall sleep after my tv (:

12th Jul

2011-07-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

I dislike being asked to do things I have no interest in.

Sometimes, life is about doing things we don't like.
Afterall, it's not just about me, myself and I.
It's about we, us and everybody.

10th Jul

2011-07-10T00:45:00.005+08:00

Home for a week already but there is massive catching up required
and i'm really trying hard to !!!
I'll try to blog about my Cambodia trip when I have the time and mood to.

First task after my return was Cynosure Ball photoshoot.
Fortunately or Unfortunately, I'm chosen for this pageant,
which I'm totally not interested.
It's like i'm going to lose yet i need to devote time.
Total sadness.
The theme for this year is SEE AYE SEE!
Simply, PIRATES!
So we dressed up as super fierce pirates
which i totally suck at it.
I don't dare to see my photos ):

Tuesday we had catwalk training.
disaster. i totally resist the agency. enough said.

Wednesday stayed at home to settle
YEP financial matters.

Actually i'm living the Cambodian way of life.
long breaks and short working hours ;)

Thursday was dance training for cac foc sp night.
that one was manageable (:
Then proceeded with meeting till late.

Friday was dance training for cynosure,
i want to cry )':

Then i went for my friend's BBQ cum chalet
which was a random decision and the
people who were invited were totally random
and I knew only my friend who's the organiser
HAHA!!! That chalet was for his birthday celebration anyway.
Random but quite fun after all.

Saturday was tuition.

Today also the same.

& there goes a week.

Work is piling up!!! ):

okay i love my straw bag! it's nice and fashionable right!!!
for 5 bucks only :P

3rd Jul

2011-07-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

Just a short one.

I'm finally back in Singapore after 16 days in Cambodia.
A land of diversity.
This trip has definitely taught me a lot.
In terms of learning about the people, culture and traditions in Cambodia and
also my personal growth.

Good night for now.

17th Jun

2011-06-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the day.

Leaving for Phnom Penh, Cambodia tomorrow.
Envisioning A Great Learning Experience there. Will come online if conditions permit.

This should be my first and last OCIP trip for my entire school life.
To speak the truth, the whole thing feels unreal to me.
I'm super super excited about it please let it be good!

I'll be staying in the dormitory, having construction in the village/teaching in the orphanage in the day and free and easy at night.
Instead of Facebook, twitter, tumblr, weibo, I will be gazing at the stars and counting mozzies!
Later part of the trip, we will be involved in soap making and distribution.
Will also be exploring Siam Reap for R&R for a couple of days after all the hard work.
More importantly, I'll be back on 3rd Jul night!

I have decided to bring a notebook over there to note down my encounters
and to record my feelings over the 16 days!
Camera ready to take photos of some interesting scenes.
Will definitely blog about it when I come back!

Please miss me :)
& friends and readers, please take care!
God bless!

I'll be back soon (:

14th Jun

2011-06-14T23:38:00.002+08:00

Angkor Wat! What a beautiful place :D

O-M-G!!! I'm looking forward to my OCIP and my getaway
minus the teaching part. HAHA!

12th Jun

2011-06-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

National Vertical Marathon 2011

First ever Marathon!
It was fabulous!
At least I completed the entire marathon
and got to enjoy the breathtaking view from 65th floor
of the One Raffles Place.
Okay a bit exaggerating...
But yay! It's still an achievement right!!!

11th Jun

2011-06-11T21:21:00.003+08:00

My life now is packed with activities.
No time for me to think deep deep. HAHA!
Yet it is not suffocatingly busy meeting datelines
neither is it too boring with me slouching at home
watching drama all day long :D
Everything is just nice.
Because I'm flying off in a weeks' time.
I have quite a lot of things to settle and
hand over and to plan my days when I'm back.
I feel so grateful for all things.
Of course, sometimes I feel this void somewhere in my heart.
HAHA!!!

Okay I need to take a break from all work as of now
to prepare myself mentally for NVM tomorrow.
God bless me! :D

i cannot resist lace! black lacey peetoe heels!
feminine and mysterious !

BLINGS to hit the dance floor. i don't dance
but it's still damn chio la!

AWESOME PIECE!!!
i love the M-shaped.
i love the material.
i love this mini dress!!!

ohmygod! i love tiers!
i love the two contrasts and complete with the a black ribbon!

btw, i didn't chop the model's head or anything.
it is uploaded like that online.

I WANT TO EAT ALL THE FOOD BEFORE I GO CAMBODIA!

10th Jun

2011-06-10T18:28:00.005+08:00

Blog while I can still remember

SuPreMes Seniors Camp 11/12

I chose to join Leor and I didn't regret.
We were the smallest OG because
many decided not to turn up at the very last minute.
In fact, a smaller group can bond better :D
But the 2 days were nothing short of fun
with awesomest GLs who took really great care of us,
enthusiastic seniors who participated actively in all games
and time when we nua-ed together on the sofa and in the room!
Not forgetting, being entertained with all the ghost stories
and the “you better WAKE UP your idea”!

It's my first attempt joining a camp
with no detail of the camp itinerary!
Actually it's good because you have more
things to look forward to and
there are surprises popping up now and then.

As a camp participant, I would say the games were
generally well-planned but some were not well executed.
I particularly like the team-bonding games
where the entire team could get involved.
The Mummy game was good...
when the whole team needed to wash their hairs
and collect the foam and lay it nicely on our mummy.
It's so fun!
It's all good!

I was actually very scared of the fright night.
But it turned out to be a bit more funny and lame,
which's bad!

Field and Dirty games were ALL FUN AND DIRTY!
I quite like it! :D

Seriously don't mind being a camp participant esp
when all my friends being C,VC, CP, P and whatsnot.
They don't get the fun that I had!
Being a participant is good, you get to play play play
and play and make new friends and have all the fun.
No need to worry about the camp flow and etc. HAHA!
Above all, it's so boring to do the same time
again and again right HAHA!!!
I gained a new perspective and I'm really HAPPY!

Photos on FB already :D
efficient much :P

8th Jun

2011-06-08T13:09:00.002+08:00

人越大，就越习惯压抑内心的真实感受，
不再放声大哭放声大笑，
什么都只是淡淡的点到为止。
好像越来越没有什么事，可以伤心到落泪，
再也找不出，释放伤感的出口。

如果有时间有机会自由的哭，总是好的。
如果可以痛快流出眼泪，就说明心没有干涸。

其实，我累了，我习惯假装坚强，
习惯了一个人面对所有，
我不知道自己到底想怎么样？
有时候我可以很开心的和每个人说话，
可以很放纵的，可是却没有人知道，
那是很刻意的伪装。
我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，
可是却找不到快乐的理由，只是傻笑。

有些人很坚强，喜欢在流泪的人面前，
逗他们笑，又无所不能，
总是轻而易举地帮助别人解决难题。
但面对自己的创伤时，
他们只会躲在角落里看着伤口变大，
只有面对最信赖的人时，才会拿下面具，
委屈地流下眼泪。
在哭过之后，笑着擦干眼泪，
说，没关系，我可以做得很好。

5th Jun

2011-06-05T20:34:00.005+08:00

hellohello

i'm back from camp!
Allow me to take a break from work (:

Recently my friends commented "Why you so quiet?"
I don't know. Maybe I'm used to silence or maybe
I'm in search of an inner peace.
Sometimes after a day of work and things,
you just want to keep quiet,
don't want to talk, don't want to listen.
But I think I'm very 慢热,
put it another way I'm very selectively sociable..
Some people you met and you have the 一见如故 feeling
and it's easier to open up to them.
But for some people, it's harder to relate to them.
Or sometimes, you just want to guard against others. HAHA!
I know it's difficult to be friend with people who are like that,
Patience, a higher level of patience is needed.
I cannot help it, being reserved is so ingrained in me already,
it's not easy to change.
Or maybe I'm just not interesting.
Oh well, I need to learn how open up more again...

So many many more thoughts to share. Next entry!

3rd Jun

2011-06-03T00:41:00.003+08:00

很真的人,很难得的.

1st June

2011-06-01T22:43:00.004+08:00

WHY ME? BEATS ME !!!

31st May

2011-05-31T20:12:00.003+08:00

last day of May!

i'm tired, again!
had local CIP today at a Home.
the children there were extremely energetic.
i was feeling drowsy throughout the entire session,
right from the tuition class to noon play time.
O-M-G
i aged too fast!

we had a hard time managing the children
and we eventually gave up.
they love to bully us!!!

but some of the kids really have very
poor family background.
i wonder how they overcame.
they must have a traumatised childhood.
sighhh. how blessed we are.

a little boy actually commented
this jiejie very sexy.
HAHA!!! hello how can?
i'm wearing tshirt and jeans! LOL
but he made my day!

i got some work to do
and i don't feel like doing! :(:(:(
okay teevee first !!! bye!

28th May

2011-05-28T23:04:00.006+08:00

HelloHello!!!

My first time going out shopping this year!
And i think it's so much fun,
actually it's damn tiring.

Dressing up can be a joy!

Decided to go ION orchard since it is
a few stations away from home and there are
so many shopping malls there!

I tried HAPPY LEMON!
& instantly i became a HAPPY GIRL too!
awesome!! tea latte with pudding! (:

I also tasted Sour Sally.
okay i'm nt a fan of strawberry/yoghurt.
but i think the green tea one would be nice
no wonder it went out of stock! :(

Fetish over shoes!
i tried so many pairs of them
but sigh... i cannot possibly bring all of them home.
i really really love heels leh thou i hardly or never
wear them hahaha!!! i only wear slipper/sandal :S
shoes make me vvv happy!
but when I think about the money spent ... ...
hahahahaha!!!

lazy to load photos here. go facebook!
not today, another day perhaps,
because i pon Recee Trip so that i can go out! LOL!!!

27th May

2011-05-27T01:40:00.002+08:00

I got a crazy idea ...
I feel like going for a getaway from 4th Jul to 8th Jul!
Where can I go to? :(

Okay I got plans for Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday!

I shall go enjoy GSS on Wednesday! haha!!!

26th May

2011-05-26T22:19:00.005+08:00

hellohello

I'm back, feeling super lethargic.

So, I had carwash with the YEP team on Monday.
it was my first time doing car washing.
the experience isn't that bad.
I can say, HEY i washed Ling San, Leung Pak Hing, Chua Guan Leong ...
cars before. HAHA BIG shots in SPMS ehh (:
Then again, I won't want to do it again :P
Fortunately, I need not attend the carwash event on 4th Jun.

Had vaccination on Tuesday!
3 jabs. awesome!!!
i didn't feel a thing cause i didn't see the needles.

Proceeded to chalet after that.
My team did cooking on day 1.
I only knew that on that day itself.
Or rather, we were informed about that on that day.
Went to shop around supermarket
on super tight schedule. Dashed into the supermarket,
grabbed the stuff and off we go.

The process was quite smooth thanks to my teammate
who planned everything in advanced.
I must admit and reflect on my own performance
as a financial controller.
I did not do proper budgeting.
Failure to do so would risk the chance of overspending.
Of course we did.
We spent too much on day 1
and had to cut down on day 2.
I asked myself why I let such a thing happened.

1. I was not firmed enough.
Sometimes I feel that I'm quite soft in my approach.
I know I should make sure they spend within the limit
but because my teammate had already planned
the meal for the day and stuff, I didn't want to
discourage him or anything... I allowed him to go ahead.

2. Short-sighted on my part.
I didn't do proper grocery shopping
and when my teammate showed me the list,
I'm quite slack when it comes to spending,
so i thought okay cancancan.
When we were carting out, my heart was beating real fast.
It was really a bomb!!!

Okay mistake made.
Leader scolded me and
I apologised to my leader and team.
On the bright side, it was for their welfare right...
they got to eat good stuff during this chalet (:
This is my only consolation
and I'm glad they had an enjoyable time
cooking in the kitchen with everything bought.

That aside,
I really questioned if I'm ready
mentally and physically ... for my Cambodia trip.
Because I feel blessed. Really Blessed.
Proper food, sanitary and living condition.
Would I be able to take what Cambodia has?
The truth is, 50-50.
As the days drew nearer, of course,
I know I must be physically ready.
Mentally prepared as well.
I'm well-aware what I need to face over there.
My greatest concern would be the toilet!!!
For sure I won't be able to use the squat kind of toilet.
Really cannot. I know I need to do something about it!!!
Emotionally is not easy too.
I don't know if i can trust my teammates too.
I may sound really mean
but I think they are really spoilt.
I slept on hard and cold floor for 2 nights
while some of them had comfy bed and blanket.
I really cannot tolerate this ...we are a team after all.
My back hurts like crazy.
Idky, but my knees and elbows also hurt
maybe because I hitted the wall or the floor when I flipped.
in great great pain. wuuuuuuu!!!

Not exactly sure what I will be doing over there
only know that I will be a teacher, construction worker
and soap maker. I hope I can bring my passion to teach
over to Cambodia. I hope I can experience
the life of a construction worker. I hope I can open my heart
and my eyes to see the world out there.
我相信心有多大,视野就有多大.
okay la... Haven't even go... I can't guarantee
I can survive the days but my mentality must be right.

I kept asking myself WHY DID I JOIN YEP in the first place?
WHY WHY WHY.
my answer is simple, I WANT TO SEE THE WORLD!
i'm not noble enough to help others and i doubt i can.
I just want to experience life! I just want to challenge myself!

Fingers crossed,
I need to settle all the financial stuff!
it's piling up...
My friend said you will definitely learn a lot from this.
Certainly I will.
I hope it can value-add my resume
even if it doesn't ... it certainly up my limit.
Financial matters is not easy.
i told everyone, i still want to be a fin con,
but i won't want to be a fin con again.
okay lahhh... I damn tired!!! bye...

Looking forward to Local CIP!!! WOOHOO!

24th May

2011-05-24T00:42:00.003+08:00

Yoga Lin's album is perfect, idky! HAHA!!!

had car wash on monday.
chalet later.
haiya i don't like to be away from home
i don't like to pack bag
vaccination later.
i tell you lo, i'm not afraid of pain
although my threshold for pain is low.
it is the needle and i don't like to see
how the needle is being poked into my flesh!
all the needle's fault for making me such a coward.
i got 3 jabs later.
seeing needles already can make me scared!
i need a super strong heart!

cham lah, im such a coward.

22nd May

2011-05-22T22:15:00.006+08:00

i recall the straight-forward, blunt Xiaohui I was back in the good old days.
i'd say anything i feel even if it is going to affect others.
in others' opinion, i might be insensitive
but i felt that it was alright.
because i was only speaking up the truth and maybe
on behalf of the others.
i won't need to bottle up how i feel and feeling unhappy.

when i entered uni, i changed.
i learnt that i need to compromise and sometimes,
i don't get to do or have things done my way.
i became withdrawn and i gave less opinions
be it good or bad. i don't want to be hated for saying
things that don't sound nice.
sometimes, i kept quiet when i disagree.
maybe because i'm just not an explanatory person.
i felt i was never the same.
so, i think and put them my thoughts here.

how to express yourself effectively?
i hate non-verbal ques!

been watching "secret garden", a mediacorp production.
it's about mental/psychological health.
i quite like it.
humans are really weird creatures.
everyone has mental problem(s)
so long it doesn't affect our daily activities, then it's fine.
depression o depression.

like this drama!
yvonne lim is super pretty!!!

sometimes people say "you crazy ah?"
"siao one leh you"...
how i wish i'm siao siao ding dong ding dong type.

i wonder WHY
she seemed to be in a happy relationship
but why her blog entries so emo?
why so miserable yet they want to be together?
just curious/kaypo!

i'm never a fans of Xiaozhu.
but i really like this song

我想我真的怕安静少了你吵我不开心
回家第一个开机掩盖所有的安静

i thought of my mum when i read the lyrics.
HAHA!!!

21st May

2011-05-20T11:43:00.005+08:00

DJ 初体验


I must say I don't really enjoy doing it
but the entire experience wasn't that bad after all. 
Glad that my partner was Ivy. 
I guess that's the only time I got to chat so much with her
and Ivy was more active than me during radio show haha!
I sort of relied on her to kill radio shift time lol! 

The title of our show is 1点闲聊.
Because our show was on every Monday 1pm
and I thought such a title would give us
the rights to chit chat any random stuff hahaha!!!
So lesser preparation work hahaha!! :D 


We discussed a few topics but I don't really
have an impression of them. hahaha
Maybe I crapped too much lol!
Days when we were not prepared were better
at least I won't feel so restricted and
I could speak more naturally. haha! 

Being a DJ is good, I can play songs I like!
For instance, zaizai's songs? 

To conclude 还以为说话很容易。。。
直到当了dj才晓得自己不是天生会说话说得好的人。 
Mic好象有魔力，让我无法表达自己。 
我也认了。哈哈！

18th May

2011-05-18T18:36:00.005+08:00

hello

this morning at around 8am i encounter a dilemma.
whether or not i should wake up or continue to sleep.
it's been a habit or routine of mine to wake up at around this timing
everyday due to school and tuition timetable.
it was a struggle but i chose to sleep more.
in the end, i got out of bed at 1030am.
i actually not used to sleeping in late
but i quite like the feeling. i will get use to it soon.

in the afternoon, i had a meeting with my chief and chair.
i will have stuff to do this holiday.
but i got nothing concrete to do yet.
and i'm kind of lazy now!

don't know how! work and more work are coming in!
i don't want to leave singapore ):

i got a first-aid course to attend tomorrow RAHHHH!
for what right!!!
i rather attend make-up course
okay i'm just kidding, it's the mindset that's the most important.

sorry my life is boring
and i cannot entertain you with anything interesting.
as you know, i'm a house-daughter.
i stay at home all the time i could.
also, i'm not the expressive type
but i like to type some random thoughts here.
i also hope my life can be more happening,
but i don't know how.
i'm anti-social and i live in my own world.
okay i don't know what i'm driving at
and i'm not as happy as before
sometimes i think there is something
not quite right with myself, physically and mentally.

sigh oh sigh! simply put, i think i lost a direction in life.

that aside, there is a new name list for the cabinet, INTERESTING!

17th May

2011-05-18T00:27:00.003+08:00

Hello !!!

A sudden lost of word, it's okay,
i'm living and breathing good (:

today is Vesak.
i don't have a religion for many years because
my dad don't believe in those things
and he doesn't allow it at home.
as i grew older, i began to think for myself and
after many things that happened in my life, i realise
Buddhism teachings gave me light, strength and position outlook.
i seek "enlightenment" in times of difficulties.
i'm not a hardcore Buddhist i don't pray or what
i merely read the fo jing and eat vegetarian food.
HAHA! you can call me a buddhist i'm okay (:

i quickly snapped a picture of myself
in this pretty shade which i wouldn't buy.
i hope i don't look stupid haha!

work oh work!

16th May

2011-05-16T23:05:00.001+08:00

blogger ate my post :S

2 very nice songs!

okay. exam ended.

11th May

2011-05-11T23:39:00.002+08:00

CBC313 was alright.
the best thing was, I sat beside my best lab buddy!!!
when i saw her beside my desk, I took a deep breathe,
because I was too excited. the guy beside me
thought I hyperventilated or something haha!!!

one more paper to go.
accounting ): i really got zero confident!

10th May

2011-05-10T16:29:00.005+08:00

很有感染力的一把声音, NICE!

9th May

2011-05-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

Feeling accomplished!
Have you taken two papers in a day before?
I had and I never want to do it again.
It's mentally very strained and the feeling is ($@&($@&)!!!
Don't know to study this or that
Neither here nor there...!!!

Anyway mb106 is the last essay paper I took in my entire undergrad life.
No more essays! :)(
Actually I like to argue my points
But my command of eng is not solid enough
However it seemed like lousy eng also can do well for essay exam papers! :P
Tested and Proven :D

Big Sigh...when people know how to do it and you don't...
This feeling sucks!
I really cannot do organometallic chem,
but thanks god it's overrrrr!!!

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8th May

2011-05-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

GE is over.
I'm a little surprised why the %age for PAP
in Nee Soon GRC is so low.
Okay, I'm worried to be exact.

Time for electrons!

Because I did badly for my midterms,
I'm more determined to give up on cbc312
and focused primarily on another module.
I got 2 papers tomorrow. God bless.

7th May

2011-05-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

Today is an important day for our Nation.
GE2011 (:

I voted (:

This is the first time I paid serious attention to politics.
Hard not to since everyone is talking about it on bus, lunch break,
facebook, twitter and tv are reporting it
every now and then. How to remain politically apathetic!!!
Like my friend said, 5 years down the road,
you would be even more interested!!!
Think about it 1989 babies are the youngest lot
who get to vote. But I heard a lot from my peers,
those 2-3 years older than me. HAHA!!!
Serious thinking. I might need a flat in 5 years time.
My parents need more health care 10 years down the road.
I need a job in 1 year time. But, government don't owe us a living.
HAHA I may seem contradicting here and there
but I'm trying to be less explicit LOL!!! vote is a secret!
Anyway, I also think this is the most democratic election
Singapore ever had since 1959. LOL!!!
okay let's cross our fingers and wait for the results.

Anyway I cancelled all tuition this weekend so that I can have more time to do revision.
I can really sense the urgency but my pea-sized brain just cannot study fast enough.
I feel happier without tuition actually.
To put it another way, I like both tuition and schoolwork.
But I cannot juggle both of them.
Okay... Back to study

Did I mention, zz majored in management? hahaha!!!

6th May

2011-05-06T20:58:00.002+08:00

no more physical chem for the rest of my uni life!!!

i felt so liberated when the speaker read please stop writing!

(:

cbc426 is tough as expected, but harder
than expected. i stumbled but managed to do 60%.
to speak the truth, even if i get a B- at the end,
i don't regret taking this module.
because my prof is really proficient in teaching
and i learnt quite a lot from him.
but the thing is, i don't know how to apply the concepts
and that is because of the inadequate amount of practice.
being able to clear yet another physical chem module is rather satisfying.

i'm still motivated!!!
organometallic chemistry and business management!
GO GO GO!!!
i hope i won't need to take mgmt with a sucken mood.
cbc312 you better be good to me!

GE tomorrow!!! (:
please vote wisely and revise obediently.

5th May

2011-05-05T23:31:00.003+08:00

Examination cooling off period.

I WILL WORK HARD NEXT SEMESTER (:

a random note,
i feel uneasy when someone pops up
and be nice to me. how?

4th May

2011-05-04T16:09:00.003+08:00

omg!
2 days to my first paper!

i'm feeling bored @ home.
not that i have studied all my stuff
but i just cannot appreciate what i'm reading.
sigh.
it's raining now!
i thought it would be good if i can go out now...
but my house is really far from MRT station
and i hate to wait for bus 812! damn freaking slow.
okay when it is time to study i want to go out.
when i can go out i want to work.
i think all i want is freedom LOL!!!
it would be better if i have a chauffeur?
then i can go anywhere anytime i want HAHA!
i don't know how to spend my holidays, HOW?!?!
its the last holiday before i grad... ROARRRR!

i don't know what i am typing lah
just like i don't know what i am reading
chem kinetics and dynamic!!!
chemistry is so dynamic (:

2nd May

2011-05-02T19:03:00.003+08:00

好好听的旋律
好好听的演绎
i agree with the lyrics totally
but i got no one there for me lah!
i'll definitely support his album if
he come over here for promotion :D
his <<美妙生活>> out on 6th May
but there's when my nightmare begins! :(