07 January 2012
10:48 PM
before i enter uni, i hated brand new year.
because it means i need to go back to school
not so bad if it is the same classmates...
if its a totally new class, i will cry T.T
these few years were awesome
because new year means celebration
and no need to go back to school...
the mood was so much better.
but the same old feeling is back...
i need to start internship next week.
it will be 5 LONG months.
from 9th jan to 9th june.
i really feel like im on probation.
maybe a nicer word compared to jail.
initially i didnt feel that bad until
i learnt that my pay is so much lower than my peers.
totally wts! i went for interview and they didnt even need.
i kept telling myself the most important is
i learnt something during this period.
but its hard to swallow ... really.
sometimes i hope i can job-hop every now and then.
had my ia briefing at mahachem on tuesday.
i met my mentor and he assigned us jobs.
he had a super long conversation with me
as compared to my peers.
don't know if it is good or bad.
he told me to open my heart to experience
real working life and do it professionally.
to learn you must do it yourself.
(i laughed when he told me that because
DO IT is such a sensitive word. Vanness and Zaizai's song!)
he also told me to set high expectation for myself
and be ready to be challenged every day.
(actually i don't mind that... i scared got nothing to do)
always believe in your capabilities and you will be able to do it.
my gp tutor once wrote on my gp essay
"i think therefore i am"
and i will never forget.
yes i believe i will work hard for my internship.
because i want to do well (:
i don't want to disappoint anyone and more
importantly, myself...
it's the beginning to more opportunities.
